An Ode to You

Another year has almost come and gone

The hardest one yet

I couldn’t watch you fade away

And now it still seems unreal

Shattered dreams and shattered plans

A strange new world, without you in it

Somehow I’m still breathing

Still searching for something I can’t name

Now it’s your voice in my head

That tells me to keep going

The old is wiped away

The new path sits unclear

I watch the sun come up and wonder

What comes next

Do I stay

Do I stand and walk away

Can I find the strength to leave behind

The dreams we used to have

New fears, new hopes

Bred of death

And the life that followed

Clearer eyes and truths finally faced

Learning to remember

While finding the will to let go

I say goodbye, take a step forward

Heart in my throat, tears in my eyes

Farewell, you were loved

But it wasn’t a waste

Life or death

For you carry on in me